I'M NOT CRAZY!!!
To those who read my fanfictions, I'm not advocating gay-ness (no offence), and they're just plain fictional. Do not take it seriously!
To Evelyn Tan, kindly do not label them as gay. It's just me fangirling and flailing.. Don't think you'll understand.. But still... :p
God bless me...
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Chibi Tomapi - Short and sweet (literally)
Title: Chibi Tomapi - Short and sweet (literally)
Pairings: Tomapi
Note: Toma and Pi when they were chibi and cute. On friendship.
Disclaimer: Purely fiction. Nothing to do with Johnny's.
He dragged his heavy and tired body into the small apartment. It was a really lousy day because everything that could go wrong just went wrong and Toma was really down. He made it to the shower and just sat there, really depressed, and annoyed at himself. Funnily, the hostel was really quiet. No one seemed to be home, though somewhere he heard someone snoring. Today he wasn't the funny, cheerful Toma that everyone loved. He was just tried, and plain crappy.
So when Yamapi burst into his room later on, brimming energy and radiating like a sun, Toma nearly snapped at him, though it took all of his will-power not to.
"I'm tired Pi" Toma sighed. He couldn't sleep and his mind kept replaying the day's events, like a broken record. How cruel can life get, Toma mused.
Pi, having sensed Toma's brooding mood, immediately wiped away the silly grin on his face, and gingerly walked over to Toma's bed.
"Is everything ok?"
Toma grunted in response.
Silence.
Pi understood, and gently climbed into Toma's bed.
"Ne... You can lean on me, you know," Pi said out loud to the big lump of body beneath the covers that belonged to Toma.
Silence still.
Pi took a deep breath and continued. "You always act so strong and carefree. But if you get tired, you can lean on me."
Pi stared intently at the lump on the bed. Taking his silence as permission to go on, Pi gathered courage and removed the layers of linen covering his best friend. There, curled up with his knees to his chest, was a spiritless person in need of warmth and love.
Pi leaned down and looked Toma in the eye. Eyes filled with dejectedness looked back. Yamapi lay down on his side and held Toma tightly. He cradled the older one in his thin, 13 year old arms.
"You don't have to be strong everytime. It's okay to be weak sometime. I'll be strong for us both. You can lean on me... Anytime."
After some time, small Toma gave a soft nod in response. He finally fell asleep in the secure arms of a good and loved friend.
Pairings: Tomapi
Note: Toma and Pi when they were chibi and cute. On friendship.
Disclaimer: Purely fiction. Nothing to do with Johnny's.
He dragged his heavy and tired body into the small apartment. It was a really lousy day because everything that could go wrong just went wrong and Toma was really down. He made it to the shower and just sat there, really depressed, and annoyed at himself. Funnily, the hostel was really quiet. No one seemed to be home, though somewhere he heard someone snoring. Today he wasn't the funny, cheerful Toma that everyone loved. He was just tried, and plain crappy.
So when Yamapi burst into his room later on, brimming energy and radiating like a sun, Toma nearly snapped at him, though it took all of his will-power not to.
"I'm tired Pi" Toma sighed. He couldn't sleep and his mind kept replaying the day's events, like a broken record. How cruel can life get, Toma mused.
Pi, having sensed Toma's brooding mood, immediately wiped away the silly grin on his face, and gingerly walked over to Toma's bed.
"Is everything ok?"
Toma grunted in response.
Silence.
Pi understood, and gently climbed into Toma's bed.
"Ne... You can lean on me, you know," Pi said out loud to the big lump of body beneath the covers that belonged to Toma.
Silence still.
Pi took a deep breath and continued. "You always act so strong and carefree. But if you get tired, you can lean on me."
Pi stared intently at the lump on the bed. Taking his silence as permission to go on, Pi gathered courage and removed the layers of linen covering his best friend. There, curled up with his knees to his chest, was a spiritless person in need of warmth and love.
Pi leaned down and looked Toma in the eye. Eyes filled with dejectedness looked back. Yamapi lay down on his side and held Toma tightly. He cradled the older one in his thin, 13 year old arms.
"You don't have to be strong everytime. It's okay to be weak sometime. I'll be strong for us both. You can lean on me... Anytime."
After some time, small Toma gave a soft nod in response. He finally fell asleep in the secure arms of a good and loved friend.
Toma's Valentine's Date
Title: Toma's Valentine's Date
Pairings: Tomapi
Disclaimer: Fiction only, and I don't own Johnny's, although I wish I owned Ryo, Toma and Kei-chan ^___^
A pair of stone-washed jeans flew through the air. Followed by 3 more shirts and a pair of black long pants with studs embedded onto it. Half the clothes in the young man's closet were now lying all over the place, covering the floor and occupying half the bed. And still he could not find anything to wear. It was getting frustrating! And only 3 more days to go before the big day arrives! He let out a sigh and sat precariously on the edge of the bed, surveying the mess he had created. A sigh escapes his soft lips.
“Now I’ll have to clean up this mess.. And still nothing to wear! What am I going to do???” he muttered.
As he was deep in thoughts, a message came through to his handphone. Glad for the distraction, he flipped it open and saw the sender. Eager to read his message, he clicked it excitedly.
3 more days! I’m counting the days, can you believe it?!
This is so not me...
See you then!!♥
“Yaa! Don’t remind me already that it’s 3 days away!” he shouted at the phone. Looking miserable again, he flopped down on his bed, crumpling all his clothes. He played with the ring attached to his necklace, twisting it and talking absently to it, “What will I wear hmm? Maybe I should just wear nothing. Give him a surprise..”
Then he snorted, “Yeah right.. Then everyone will stare at me like I’m some lunatic.”
“Haaiiizzzzzz…………” a sigh escaped again.
“I guess I have to shop.
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The date 14 on the calendar was decorated with tiny little red hearts. Every time his eyes flicked over to the calendar, his heart made a summersault. He felt energised by the thought of seeing his friend and knowing that they are going on a date together. Now that the day has arrived, he was even more excited. The present was bought and wrapped. His clothes (finally!) were picked out, and now he stood in front of his mirror, getting ready.
He made sure his hair was in all the right places. He scrutinized his handsome face and blew a kiss to his image. He caught sight of his body and a small frown broke the good-looking face.
Hmmm.. If only I had lovely arms like him….
Oh well, I’m not that bad looking too. I should score 4 out of 5!
And so, his mood was good again. He finished dressing, scooped up the gift and left his apartment.
Ikuta Toma was going on a date today.
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He sashayed into the small café. Scents of freshly baked muffins wafted out to greet him. Freshly brewed coffee was being poured into white little cups with hearts on them. In a little corner, he saw what he wanted to see. Another man with a dark blue beret over his hair. The face was impeccably good looking and the skin flawless. He was leaning against a cushioned chair, flipping through magazines. He had not noticed Toma. Toma walked over.
“Is this place taken?”
The other man looked up at the voice. His eyes widened with surprise, but a welcoming smile quickly graced his face.
“Toma!”
The younger man stood up to embrace his friend. He was so glad that they could take time out to meet here despite their busy schedule. But Valentine’s Day was a day where nothing else mattered, except your loved ones. And Yamapi was not going to let his Toma spend Valentine’s Day alone again, like the years before. This year, they will celebrate it together.
“You are on time” Pi greeted Toma.
“Nah..You’re the one who’s early. What time did you reach? I thought you slept late last night?”
“I had to wake up early for today, didn’t I? Besides, I was too excited to sleep anyway.” Pi smiled shyly at Toma. He continued, “So..where are we going today? You said it would be fun.”
“It will be fun. The day is planned out, so shall we start?” Toma held his hand out to Pi.
Yamashita nodded and gave Toma his hand. Both left the shop and started their anticipated day together under a bright blue sky.
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The beach was their first stop. Not many people were here, so they walked hand in hand, chasing waves and digging for shells. Like kids they were, running around and playing. Leaving behind their alter egos and worries and frolicking in the sun. Toma chased after a crab and Pi yelled at him for being silly (because the crab started running in Pi’s direction). Then the angry crab started running after Pi, to which Toma hooted with laughter because Pi was now trying to get away from it.
Even the sun seemed to be laughing at them, for he shone his rays merrily on the two golden boys who seemed oblivious to the world around them. They went for a swim and challenged each other to a race (which Yamapi won easily because Toma got distracted by a seagull..). They spent almost 3 hours on the beach before giving in to their hungry stomachs. Both men decided to eat at a nearby sushi restaurant. Toma ordered most of the food while Pi ate up almost everything. Which brought a smile to Toma’s lips.
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After filling their stomachs, they went for a short trip in their car. Talking and feeling the wind in their hair. With Toma driving, Pi blared the music and held Toma’s hand all the way. They shared a quick kiss and laughed about it. Yamashita saw the present Toma was supposed to give him and grabbed it from the back seat. Before Toma could even blink, Pi had already torn the wrapping paper and was gleefully unwrapping the gift. Oh yes, Toma protested, but it was too late. So he resorted to hitting the younger man on the arm (as gentle as possible of course….).
Toma had presented him another ring. However, this ring was much nicer. On the top, it was carved ‘Pi’, but on the inner part of the ring, it was skilfully carved ‘Toma♥Pi’. Yamashita immediately slipped his new ring on and wore a silly grin on his face for the rest of the day. And so it was that the day wore on. They found a Ferris wheel and both wanted to ride on it. So they did. They went shopping in a flea market and got identical bracelets each.
As dusk came, Toma brought Pi to their last destination of the day. They came to Johnny’s Studios in Tokyo. As Toma parked his car, Yamashita turned and looked at Toma. Confusion and curiosity etched onto his face.
“Why are we here?” he gestured at the building.
Turning to look at his beloved, Toma smiled and answered in a husky voice, “Trust me, you’ll like this.”
Getting out of the car, he pulled Yamashita along with him. The building was nearly empty, save for some staffs that had to finish up their work. They went in through the back door. Toma knew the building like the back of his hand. How many times had he roamed these corridors during his free time. He had grown here, along with Tomohisa and other friends. The building had watched them grow. He took the elevator to the 3rd floor and found the second door on the right.
“Toma” Pi whispered.
“It’s all right. No one will see us. And even if someone catches us, we can say we were just practicing.” He comforted the younger man.
Yamapi became even more confused, “Practicing??...”
“You’ll see”, Toma answered.
Both men stepped silently into the spacious studio. They could see their reflection on the mirror facing them. Toma’s eyes wide with excitement and Pi getting excited from curiosity. Toma walked over to the CD player, slipped in a disc, and walked towards Pi, remote control in hand.
“Do you remember Yokubou no Rain?”
Pi getting even more confused, “Yokubou no Rain?” he asked. “The Kinki Kids song?”
Toma took a step nearer to him, “Yes, the song. But, do you remember the steps to which we danced and sang to?”
“Tomo-chan, this is our stage now. All eyes are on us. We wanted to do more things together, so here we are now.”
Toma now stood behind Yamapi. Both their eyes met on the mirror. And a slow nod came from Pi.
“How can I ever forget? But I’m not an excellent dancer like you, so, can we practice the steps one more time?”
Toma nodded his head and grinned, “Sure! Yosh, let’s do this!”
And so they went through the steps one more time. Toma guiding the younger one on and off. Each reliving the moment of the past where they performed this song together. Each singing the part they were assigned to. Singing a song about unrequited love, pain, and loneliness. And when they finally got it right, Toma pressed the play button once again. So they danced, twirled, and moved along with the music. All moves correct and perfect this time. A happy moment for them both as they danced and sang for their audience in their minds. Performing together once again.
The song ended and they stopped. Sweat made the air now musty and damp. But yet they were not tired. Instead both men were surprisingly energetic. They caught each other’s eyes and broke out into laughter. Raucous peals of laughter, just like when they were young. They sat by the window and looked at the night view of the city. Lights everywhere made Tokyo beautiful. Soft shimmering lights and the sounds of cars honking brought the city to life.
Yamapi rested his head on Toma’s shoulders and hummed softly. He knows tomorrow will bring distance to them again with filming and rehearsals. So for now, he just wants Toma’s presence to calm him and renew him. How many times have he clung to Toma in times of need. He always has and will continue to do so. And Toma relishes his role as a mountain of strength in Pi’s life. To keep him secure and to help him always.
Toma lay his head down to the floor and closed his eyes. He had the best Valentine’s Day ever today and he wanted to keep every memory with him. As he smiled, Pi closed his lips down on the other man. Instinctively, Toma kissed back. It always ended with a kiss. It has to, doesn’t it?
Pairings: Tomapi
Disclaimer: Fiction only, and I don't own Johnny's, although I wish I owned Ryo, Toma and Kei-chan ^___^
A pair of stone-washed jeans flew through the air. Followed by 3 more shirts and a pair of black long pants with studs embedded onto it. Half the clothes in the young man's closet were now lying all over the place, covering the floor and occupying half the bed. And still he could not find anything to wear. It was getting frustrating! And only 3 more days to go before the big day arrives! He let out a sigh and sat precariously on the edge of the bed, surveying the mess he had created. A sigh escapes his soft lips.
“Now I’ll have to clean up this mess.. And still nothing to wear! What am I going to do???” he muttered.
As he was deep in thoughts, a message came through to his handphone. Glad for the distraction, he flipped it open and saw the sender. Eager to read his message, he clicked it excitedly.
3 more days! I’m counting the days, can you believe it?!
This is so not me...
See you then!!♥
“Yaa! Don’t remind me already that it’s 3 days away!” he shouted at the phone. Looking miserable again, he flopped down on his bed, crumpling all his clothes. He played with the ring attached to his necklace, twisting it and talking absently to it, “What will I wear hmm? Maybe I should just wear nothing. Give him a surprise..”
Then he snorted, “Yeah right.. Then everyone will stare at me like I’m some lunatic.”
“Haaiiizzzzzz…………” a sigh escaped again.
“I guess I have to shop.
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The date 14 on the calendar was decorated with tiny little red hearts. Every time his eyes flicked over to the calendar, his heart made a summersault. He felt energised by the thought of seeing his friend and knowing that they are going on a date together. Now that the day has arrived, he was even more excited. The present was bought and wrapped. His clothes (finally!) were picked out, and now he stood in front of his mirror, getting ready.
He made sure his hair was in all the right places. He scrutinized his handsome face and blew a kiss to his image. He caught sight of his body and a small frown broke the good-looking face.
Hmmm.. If only I had lovely arms like him….
Oh well, I’m not that bad looking too. I should score 4 out of 5!
And so, his mood was good again. He finished dressing, scooped up the gift and left his apartment.
Ikuta Toma was going on a date today.
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He sashayed into the small café. Scents of freshly baked muffins wafted out to greet him. Freshly brewed coffee was being poured into white little cups with hearts on them. In a little corner, he saw what he wanted to see. Another man with a dark blue beret over his hair. The face was impeccably good looking and the skin flawless. He was leaning against a cushioned chair, flipping through magazines. He had not noticed Toma. Toma walked over.
“Is this place taken?”
The other man looked up at the voice. His eyes widened with surprise, but a welcoming smile quickly graced his face.
“Toma!”
The younger man stood up to embrace his friend. He was so glad that they could take time out to meet here despite their busy schedule. But Valentine’s Day was a day where nothing else mattered, except your loved ones. And Yamapi was not going to let his Toma spend Valentine’s Day alone again, like the years before. This year, they will celebrate it together.
“You are on time” Pi greeted Toma.
“Nah..You’re the one who’s early. What time did you reach? I thought you slept late last night?”
“I had to wake up early for today, didn’t I? Besides, I was too excited to sleep anyway.” Pi smiled shyly at Toma. He continued, “So..where are we going today? You said it would be fun.”
“It will be fun. The day is planned out, so shall we start?” Toma held his hand out to Pi.
Yamashita nodded and gave Toma his hand. Both left the shop and started their anticipated day together under a bright blue sky.
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The beach was their first stop. Not many people were here, so they walked hand in hand, chasing waves and digging for shells. Like kids they were, running around and playing. Leaving behind their alter egos and worries and frolicking in the sun. Toma chased after a crab and Pi yelled at him for being silly (because the crab started running in Pi’s direction). Then the angry crab started running after Pi, to which Toma hooted with laughter because Pi was now trying to get away from it.
Even the sun seemed to be laughing at them, for he shone his rays merrily on the two golden boys who seemed oblivious to the world around them. They went for a swim and challenged each other to a race (which Yamapi won easily because Toma got distracted by a seagull..). They spent almost 3 hours on the beach before giving in to their hungry stomachs. Both men decided to eat at a nearby sushi restaurant. Toma ordered most of the food while Pi ate up almost everything. Which brought a smile to Toma’s lips.
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After filling their stomachs, they went for a short trip in their car. Talking and feeling the wind in their hair. With Toma driving, Pi blared the music and held Toma’s hand all the way. They shared a quick kiss and laughed about it. Yamashita saw the present Toma was supposed to give him and grabbed it from the back seat. Before Toma could even blink, Pi had already torn the wrapping paper and was gleefully unwrapping the gift. Oh yes, Toma protested, but it was too late. So he resorted to hitting the younger man on the arm (as gentle as possible of course….).
Toma had presented him another ring. However, this ring was much nicer. On the top, it was carved ‘Pi’, but on the inner part of the ring, it was skilfully carved ‘Toma♥Pi’. Yamashita immediately slipped his new ring on and wore a silly grin on his face for the rest of the day. And so it was that the day wore on. They found a Ferris wheel and both wanted to ride on it. So they did. They went shopping in a flea market and got identical bracelets each.
As dusk came, Toma brought Pi to their last destination of the day. They came to Johnny’s Studios in Tokyo. As Toma parked his car, Yamashita turned and looked at Toma. Confusion and curiosity etched onto his face.
“Why are we here?” he gestured at the building.
Turning to look at his beloved, Toma smiled and answered in a husky voice, “Trust me, you’ll like this.”
Getting out of the car, he pulled Yamashita along with him. The building was nearly empty, save for some staffs that had to finish up their work. They went in through the back door. Toma knew the building like the back of his hand. How many times had he roamed these corridors during his free time. He had grown here, along with Tomohisa and other friends. The building had watched them grow. He took the elevator to the 3rd floor and found the second door on the right.
“Toma” Pi whispered.
“It’s all right. No one will see us. And even if someone catches us, we can say we were just practicing.” He comforted the younger man.
Yamapi became even more confused, “Practicing??...”
“You’ll see”, Toma answered.
Both men stepped silently into the spacious studio. They could see their reflection on the mirror facing them. Toma’s eyes wide with excitement and Pi getting excited from curiosity. Toma walked over to the CD player, slipped in a disc, and walked towards Pi, remote control in hand.
“Do you remember Yokubou no Rain?”
Pi getting even more confused, “Yokubou no Rain?” he asked. “The Kinki Kids song?”
Toma took a step nearer to him, “Yes, the song. But, do you remember the steps to which we danced and sang to?”
“Tomo-chan, this is our stage now. All eyes are on us. We wanted to do more things together, so here we are now.”
Toma now stood behind Yamapi. Both their eyes met on the mirror. And a slow nod came from Pi.
“How can I ever forget? But I’m not an excellent dancer like you, so, can we practice the steps one more time?”
Toma nodded his head and grinned, “Sure! Yosh, let’s do this!”
And so they went through the steps one more time. Toma guiding the younger one on and off. Each reliving the moment of the past where they performed this song together. Each singing the part they were assigned to. Singing a song about unrequited love, pain, and loneliness. And when they finally got it right, Toma pressed the play button once again. So they danced, twirled, and moved along with the music. All moves correct and perfect this time. A happy moment for them both as they danced and sang for their audience in their minds. Performing together once again.
The song ended and they stopped. Sweat made the air now musty and damp. But yet they were not tired. Instead both men were surprisingly energetic. They caught each other’s eyes and broke out into laughter. Raucous peals of laughter, just like when they were young. They sat by the window and looked at the night view of the city. Lights everywhere made Tokyo beautiful. Soft shimmering lights and the sounds of cars honking brought the city to life.
Yamapi rested his head on Toma’s shoulders and hummed softly. He knows tomorrow will bring distance to them again with filming and rehearsals. So for now, he just wants Toma’s presence to calm him and renew him. How many times have he clung to Toma in times of need. He always has and will continue to do so. And Toma relishes his role as a mountain of strength in Pi’s life. To keep him secure and to help him always.
Toma lay his head down to the floor and closed his eyes. He had the best Valentine’s Day ever today and he wanted to keep every memory with him. As he smiled, Pi closed his lips down on the other man. Instinctively, Toma kissed back. It always ended with a kiss. It has to, doesn’t it?
Reunion Dinner, Johnny style!
Title: Reunion Dinner, Johnny Style
Pairings: Tomapi, and everyone who is together in Johnny. Big happy family!Summary: Reunion dinner with everyone. And some Tomapi love ^__^
"YOHHH!!!"
"So much food!"
"SUGOI!!!!!!"
Toma stares open mouthed at the food on the table. His eyes doesn't know where to stop, his hands doesn't know where to start.
It was a reunion dinner of sorts. Most of the Johnny boys he had grew up with were here. Senpais and kouhais all interacting together and enjoying themselves. And everyone was very loud... In one corner, Kamenashi Kazuya was stuffing prawns into Jin's mouth. Ryo was lauging so hard, he had to hold his stomach. Ueda was glaring at Ryo because he couldn't eat his food and most of all, he wanted to be Ryo's centre of attention...At the head of the table sat Takki, flaunted by Tsubasa on his right and Jimmy Mackey on his left who was talking with his mouth open, spitting food everywhere and not being apologetic. Matsumoto Jun was also there, sitting with other Arashi members. And of course, Yamashita was next to him, angry because Toma was late, as usual..
And currently, Toma was trying hard to ignore those flashing eyes, staring daggers at him. He averted his eyes towards the food that was on the table.
"Yo, Tegoshi! How's the food? I'm hungry!" Toma asked.
Tegoshi stuck a thumb up at Toma and grinned like the werecat from Alice in Wonderland.
And Yamapi had it. He grabbed Toma, and yanked his hands to make him sit.
"Don't IGNORE me!", Yamapi's chopsticks pointing at Toma. Ignoring Tegoshi's astonished looks, he ranted on, " I haven't seen you for so long, and now you're deliberately ignoring me? I am not taking that! You are an idiot, you know? Idiot!"
The table fell silent. Toma could feel all eyes on them as Pi's words rang out loud and clear. Even the waitress raised an eyebrow.
Oh-oh.. I better calm the tempest before the storm breaks.. Toma thought to himself.
And with that, Toma put on his best pout and biggest set of puppy eyes. Yosh, I'll give it my all..
"Pii... Don't be angry please? Ne??" *puppy eyes again*
"I was just teasing you...." *bigger puppy eyes and exaggerated pout this time*
"Gome-na-sai, Pi-chan" Toma said with a singsong voice and tugged at Yamashita's sleeves.
"Yo, Pi! Come on! Forgive your lover and all will be well" Tsubasa yelled and received a kiss from Takki-kun. "I can't eat with Toma acting all so mushy over there. It's so distracting!" and Takki mimics Toma's pouting face.
"Piiiii...." Toma adds, biting his lips this time for extra effect while giving him the I'm-so-cute-you-cannot-ignore-me-forever-look.
Yamapi's inner desire to torment Toma breaks at that look. He gives in and grunts, not wanting Toma to know that he has him around his finger.
I'm going soft over this guy.. Oh Lord... Yamapi lords in his head.
He grabs a fried broccoli and puts it on Toma's plate and pouts.
Toma throws his hands up in the air, gives a shout of delight, flashes the victory sign, and ruffles Yamashita's hair and hugging him at the same time.
The crowd goes wild again and everyone lapses back into a cheerful mood. Knowing that no one will notice, Toma plants a quick kiss on Yamapi's cheeks, and wriggles down to be next to him.
Yamashita Tomohisa cannot help, but smile at that.
Pairings: Tomapi, and everyone who is together in Johnny. Big happy family!Summary: Reunion dinner with everyone. And some Tomapi love ^__^
"YOHHH!!!"
"So much food!"
"SUGOI!!!!!!"
Toma stares open mouthed at the food on the table. His eyes doesn't know where to stop, his hands doesn't know where to start.
It was a reunion dinner of sorts. Most of the Johnny boys he had grew up with were here. Senpais and kouhais all interacting together and enjoying themselves. And everyone was very loud... In one corner, Kamenashi Kazuya was stuffing prawns into Jin's mouth. Ryo was lauging so hard, he had to hold his stomach. Ueda was glaring at Ryo because he couldn't eat his food and most of all, he wanted to be Ryo's centre of attention...At the head of the table sat Takki, flaunted by Tsubasa on his right and Jimmy Mackey on his left who was talking with his mouth open, spitting food everywhere and not being apologetic. Matsumoto Jun was also there, sitting with other Arashi members. And of course, Yamashita was next to him, angry because Toma was late, as usual..
And currently, Toma was trying hard to ignore those flashing eyes, staring daggers at him. He averted his eyes towards the food that was on the table.
"Yo, Tegoshi! How's the food? I'm hungry!" Toma asked.
Tegoshi stuck a thumb up at Toma and grinned like the werecat from Alice in Wonderland.
And Yamapi had it. He grabbed Toma, and yanked his hands to make him sit.
"Don't IGNORE me!", Yamapi's chopsticks pointing at Toma. Ignoring Tegoshi's astonished looks, he ranted on, " I haven't seen you for so long, and now you're deliberately ignoring me? I am not taking that! You are an idiot, you know? Idiot!"
The table fell silent. Toma could feel all eyes on them as Pi's words rang out loud and clear. Even the waitress raised an eyebrow.
Oh-oh.. I better calm the tempest before the storm breaks.. Toma thought to himself.
And with that, Toma put on his best pout and biggest set of puppy eyes. Yosh, I'll give it my all..
"Pii... Don't be angry please? Ne??" *puppy eyes again*
"I was just teasing you...." *bigger puppy eyes and exaggerated pout this time*
"Gome-na-sai, Pi-chan" Toma said with a singsong voice and tugged at Yamashita's sleeves.
"Yo, Pi! Come on! Forgive your lover and all will be well" Tsubasa yelled and received a kiss from Takki-kun. "I can't eat with Toma acting all so mushy over there. It's so distracting!" and Takki mimics Toma's pouting face.
"Piiiii...." Toma adds, biting his lips this time for extra effect while giving him the I'm-so-cute-you-cannot-ignore-me-forever-look.
Yamapi's inner desire to torment Toma breaks at that look. He gives in and grunts, not wanting Toma to know that he has him around his finger.
I'm going soft over this guy.. Oh Lord... Yamapi lords in his head.
He grabs a fried broccoli and puts it on Toma's plate and pouts.
Toma throws his hands up in the air, gives a shout of delight, flashes the victory sign, and ruffles Yamashita's hair and hugging him at the same time.
The crowd goes wild again and everyone lapses back into a cheerful mood. Knowing that no one will notice, Toma plants a quick kiss on Yamapi's cheeks, and wriggles down to be next to him.
Yamashita Tomohisa cannot help, but smile at that.
A Day Out
Title: A Day Out
Pairings: Tomapi
Rating: G
Summary: Toma and Pi's day out together to a hot spring in Hanamaki, Iwate.
"Banzai!! Banzai!!"
Toma threw his hands up in the air and the wind caught his hair. The sun was shining merrily above them and the weather was perfect. Toma was laughing so happily that passengers in other vehicles were staring at them. Yamapi caught a glance at Toma and couldn't help but laugh too. How beautiful Toma's hair was dancing in the wind, how pretty Toma's features were, when caught by the light. The slightly crooked nose, those irresistible plump lips (so very kissable - Yamapi couldn't help thinking), and those bright warm shining eyes - now twinkling with laughter. And out of the blue, those very kissable lips came out from nowhere and plonked themselves on Yamapi's lips, disrupting Pi's thoughts.
"Oi!", Pi shouted, "I'm driving!! You are going to make me crash! Baka!!"
"Well, you were staring at me and not on the road. I was just giving you a gentle reminder to wake you up." Toma retorted cheekily, and blew a kiss towards Pi.
"Baka...Now I can't drive straight..." Pi muttered under his breath and said out loud to Toma "You should kiss me when we're stationary, not on the road. And besides, there are people watching us." (pouting).
"Daijoubu Pi. You worry too much. And besides, I don't hear anyone complaining ." Toma throws a wink at Pi. "Anyway, we're supposed to enjoy our trip, aren't we? It's not easy for me to get the same free day as you. So shut up and drive. Or I shall kiss you again. And it's not like I'm a horrible kisser. I'm a superb kisser, in fact! Even Shun said so. So good that we kissed 27 times! Even the both of us have not kissed 27 times" Toma chattered.
A slight pang of jealousy twinged Yamapi's heart. Pi chose to ignore Toma and stuck his tongue out at him. And so they drove. Along the highway, coming into hilly terrain where the city air exchanged into fresher country air and the view of the ocean was turned into one of green trees and old cottages. After almost 8 hours of driving, the pair finally arrived at their destination. What bliss, Toma thought. No longer were the hectic atmosphere and human infested environment present.
Here in Hanamaki, everything was calm and even the air seemed beckoning. They found the hot spring lodge and checked in.Half an hour later, both men were stripped down to almost nothing, except a towel around each other's waist. Toma swallowed a lump when he saw Pi's lean body. How the muscles beautifully curved around his torso, how the strong muscles in the arms, how the..
Toma! Stop staring!! He pulled away his eyes and bit his lips hard as he thought to himself.
"Oi, Pi. A warm hot spring awaits us. Are you going to walk there, or am I supposed to carry you?"
"I'm not an idiot, okay? I have legs that can happily walk me there. Only thing is, my butt is numb from all the driving. I drove most of the way, and you only drove for what... 2 hours? It's always unf...." His words were cut short as Toma pulled Pi in by the waist and kissed him warmly on the mouth. Yamapi's body, tensed from all the driving, finally relaxed as he found himself in Toma's arms.
"I love you." Toma whispered as they pulled apart. "And I'll drive home." Toma smiled gently at Pi and pulled Pi towards the hot spring.
The two spent the day relaxing and chatting in the spring. Laughter accompanied the couple as they talked and shared the events that happened while apart. They both agreed that the NEWS Winter Concert was a blast and they should do more together in the future. Toma talked about Voice and Yamapi said he can't wait to watch it. Toma laughed at Pi's wrinkled skin (from soaking too long in the hot spring), and Pi squirting Toma with water. It's quite an amusing scene to behold. As the dayretreated, they decided to have dinner in their room.
After dinner, Pi snuggled up to Toma on the bed and closed his eyes. Toma gazed at Pi. Watching how his chest moved with every breath. He carresed Pi's still damp hair and kissed his forehead. Toma closed his eyes and both men were silent. Chirping of the nocturnal insects gave the ending day a harmonious melody, every note sang in accordance to the orchestra of humming insects and birds. Each enjoying the company they had. Thankful for this small getaway they managed to squeeze in.
"Happy New Year, Toma"
"Happy New Year, Yamashita."... And after a while he added,
"Let's bring our love into the new year and step into the future together. May this year be ours to conquer."
And so, the two men drifted into slumber. Each weaving in and out of each own's dream, bodies snuggled up and keeping each other warm, hands entwined and fingers linked. A future entwined with merry days to come.
Pairings: Tomapi
Rating: G
Summary: Toma and Pi's day out together to a hot spring in Hanamaki, Iwate.
"Banzai!! Banzai!!"
Toma threw his hands up in the air and the wind caught his hair. The sun was shining merrily above them and the weather was perfect. Toma was laughing so happily that passengers in other vehicles were staring at them. Yamapi caught a glance at Toma and couldn't help but laugh too. How beautiful Toma's hair was dancing in the wind, how pretty Toma's features were, when caught by the light. The slightly crooked nose, those irresistible plump lips (so very kissable - Yamapi couldn't help thinking), and those bright warm shining eyes - now twinkling with laughter. And out of the blue, those very kissable lips came out from nowhere and plonked themselves on Yamapi's lips, disrupting Pi's thoughts.
"Oi!", Pi shouted, "I'm driving!! You are going to make me crash! Baka!!"
"Well, you were staring at me and not on the road. I was just giving you a gentle reminder to wake you up." Toma retorted cheekily, and blew a kiss towards Pi.
"Baka...Now I can't drive straight..." Pi muttered under his breath and said out loud to Toma "You should kiss me when we're stationary, not on the road. And besides, there are people watching us." (pouting).
"Daijoubu Pi. You worry too much. And besides, I don't hear anyone complaining ." Toma throws a wink at Pi. "Anyway, we're supposed to enjoy our trip, aren't we? It's not easy for me to get the same free day as you. So shut up and drive. Or I shall kiss you again. And it's not like I'm a horrible kisser. I'm a superb kisser, in fact! Even Shun said so. So good that we kissed 27 times! Even the both of us have not kissed 27 times" Toma chattered.
A slight pang of jealousy twinged Yamapi's heart. Pi chose to ignore Toma and stuck his tongue out at him. And so they drove. Along the highway, coming into hilly terrain where the city air exchanged into fresher country air and the view of the ocean was turned into one of green trees and old cottages. After almost 8 hours of driving, the pair finally arrived at their destination. What bliss, Toma thought. No longer were the hectic atmosphere and human infested environment present.
Here in Hanamaki, everything was calm and even the air seemed beckoning. They found the hot spring lodge and checked in.Half an hour later, both men were stripped down to almost nothing, except a towel around each other's waist. Toma swallowed a lump when he saw Pi's lean body. How the muscles beautifully curved around his torso, how the strong muscles in the arms, how the..
Toma! Stop staring!! He pulled away his eyes and bit his lips hard as he thought to himself.
"Oi, Pi. A warm hot spring awaits us. Are you going to walk there, or am I supposed to carry you?"
"I'm not an idiot, okay? I have legs that can happily walk me there. Only thing is, my butt is numb from all the driving. I drove most of the way, and you only drove for what... 2 hours? It's always unf...." His words were cut short as Toma pulled Pi in by the waist and kissed him warmly on the mouth. Yamapi's body, tensed from all the driving, finally relaxed as he found himself in Toma's arms.
"I love you." Toma whispered as they pulled apart. "And I'll drive home." Toma smiled gently at Pi and pulled Pi towards the hot spring.
The two spent the day relaxing and chatting in the spring. Laughter accompanied the couple as they talked and shared the events that happened while apart. They both agreed that the NEWS Winter Concert was a blast and they should do more together in the future. Toma talked about Voice and Yamapi said he can't wait to watch it. Toma laughed at Pi's wrinkled skin (from soaking too long in the hot spring), and Pi squirting Toma with water. It's quite an amusing scene to behold. As the dayretreated, they decided to have dinner in their room.
After dinner, Pi snuggled up to Toma on the bed and closed his eyes. Toma gazed at Pi. Watching how his chest moved with every breath. He carresed Pi's still damp hair and kissed his forehead. Toma closed his eyes and both men were silent. Chirping of the nocturnal insects gave the ending day a harmonious melody, every note sang in accordance to the orchestra of humming insects and birds. Each enjoying the company they had. Thankful for this small getaway they managed to squeeze in.
"Happy New Year, Toma"
"Happy New Year, Yamashita."... And after a while he added,
"Let's bring our love into the new year and step into the future together. May this year be ours to conquer."
And so, the two men drifted into slumber. Each weaving in and out of each own's dream, bodies snuggled up and keeping each other warm, hands entwined and fingers linked. A future entwined with merry days to come.
Letters
Title: Letters
Pairings: Ryopi/Toma
Rating: G
Note: I was feeling sad that Ryopi had more pics than Tomapi (or so it seemed to me) and hence wrote this. The song Insa(Greeting) by DBSK from the OST for Millionaire's First Love contributed to the sad atmosphere. 2nd fic of mine, so I hope I have improved, if not slightly. Happy reading!
How can it possibly hurt so much inside...
Yamashita,
How many years have passed between us, from the first time we met up till now that we are adults? I used to think that we’ll always grow up together, sing songs together, and walk down this journey through life with each other. How silly it was for me to think that you’ll always be by my side. Obviously it wasn’t meant to be.
Perhaps I can only blame fate that we are now apart and distanced. I never knew nor expected to fall for you. Remember us going on the roller-coaster ride together? When we were 13? You gripped my hand so hard, I thought it was going to break (laughs). Funny thing was, I think I fell for you then. You were so young, small and naïve. I wanted to protect you then. To be strong for you.
You left. You could not help it, I know. I understand. The pain of it is carved into my heart. You left me when we were young, and now you will once again leave me. My heart will bleed once more, and I don’t know how long it will take to heal. Perhaps, it never will. Strangely, I don’t want it to. This pain I will carry it with me, for I can’t bear to forget you, nor can I bear to push you out of my heart.
I’m not angry with you, nor am I angry with Ryo. How silly it is that I could not see the bond you shared with him. How silly it was that I kept denying what I saw. Truth is, I was jealous. I guess this is me. Selfish me that wanted you only for myself. Wanted you to stay with me.
This is my first and last letter to you. I don’t think I’ll write again. I’m sorry for the muddled contents. My mind is angry, confused, hurt and I think my heart is speaking louder than my head. I just wanted to wish you and Ryo all the best and I know you’ll always be cherished and loved. I’m sorry for not having more dear memories to take away with me. I’m sorry to have been selfish. I’m sorry for yelling at you. I’m sorry I can’t share your happiness. I’m sorry.
I’m sorry, but I don’t think I can ever live without you.
Toma
(Toma was found struggling for his life in his apartment after inhaling too much gas. He died peacefully 2 days after hospitalization.)
Pairings: Ryopi/Toma
Rating: G
Note: I was feeling sad that Ryopi had more pics than Tomapi (or so it seemed to me) and hence wrote this. The song Insa(Greeting) by DBSK from the OST for Millionaire's First Love contributed to the sad atmosphere. 2nd fic of mine, so I hope I have improved, if not slightly. Happy reading!
How can it possibly hurt so much inside...
Yamashita,
How many years have passed between us, from the first time we met up till now that we are adults? I used to think that we’ll always grow up together, sing songs together, and walk down this journey through life with each other. How silly it was for me to think that you’ll always be by my side. Obviously it wasn’t meant to be.
Perhaps I can only blame fate that we are now apart and distanced. I never knew nor expected to fall for you. Remember us going on the roller-coaster ride together? When we were 13? You gripped my hand so hard, I thought it was going to break (laughs). Funny thing was, I think I fell for you then. You were so young, small and naïve. I wanted to protect you then. To be strong for you.
You left. You could not help it, I know. I understand. The pain of it is carved into my heart. You left me when we were young, and now you will once again leave me. My heart will bleed once more, and I don’t know how long it will take to heal. Perhaps, it never will. Strangely, I don’t want it to. This pain I will carry it with me, for I can’t bear to forget you, nor can I bear to push you out of my heart.
I’m not angry with you, nor am I angry with Ryo. How silly it is that I could not see the bond you shared with him. How silly it was that I kept denying what I saw. Truth is, I was jealous. I guess this is me. Selfish me that wanted you only for myself. Wanted you to stay with me.
This is my first and last letter to you. I don’t think I’ll write again. I’m sorry for the muddled contents. My mind is angry, confused, hurt and I think my heart is speaking louder than my head. I just wanted to wish you and Ryo all the best and I know you’ll always be cherished and loved. I’m sorry for not having more dear memories to take away with me. I’m sorry to have been selfish. I’m sorry for yelling at you. I’m sorry I can’t share your happiness. I’m sorry.
I’m sorry, but I don’t think I can ever live without you.
Toma
(Toma was found struggling for his life in his apartment after inhaling too much gas. He died peacefully 2 days after hospitalization.)
Lost and Found
Title: Lost and Found
Author: Joyce
Rating: G
Pairing: Tomapi
Note: This is my first attempt at writing fics, so I'm sorry that this is horrible! I'm truly sorry! Hontoni gomenasai!
Why is it late? Please let me see him, please I pray. Just this once. I’ve waited so long. So long. Too long.
He strode up and down the waiting lobby. He was anxious, his heart felt like it was going to jump out of his ribcage. The airport clock says 12.58pm. Toma had been waiting for only half an hour, but to him time had stopped. He looked at the arrival board and saw that flight AKA 1315 from Hawaii had arrived.
His heart skipped a beat.
Where is he??! 5 years have passed, could it be that I can’t recognize him anymore? Or maybe he has forgotten me?
NO, I should not think that way! I know he still thinks of me. Ikuta Toma, stop thinking silly thoughts!
Although he had been separated from Yamashita for years, he knows, he always knew, that they would not be apart for long. No, he won’t let anything or anyone get in their way this time. He had to try. He must. For their sake, he must.
5 years ago, news of Toma and Yamapi’s relationship leaked like wildfire. Although none of them came out publicly about it, but there were enough rumours and pictures for Johnny-san himself to take notice. Things were getting out of hand, and many fans were displeased. They had thought it was all rumours, and hadn’t expected it to be real. The older generation were disgusted by their relationship. No, they could not accept homosexuality yet, not just yet.
Johnny Jimusho himself then took things into his hands and gave both of them an ultimatum. They had to go separate ways, or else risked being dropped from the company and paying back their contract. Toma knew they had to take it. He can’t allow Yamapi’s successful career to just wilt away and disappear. He had a band to lead and millions of fans to answer to, unlike him who back then hasn’t yet debuted. No, for Yamapi’s sake, he would have to separate from Yamapi.
Under Johnny’s orders, Yamashita will have to leave to further his studies in Business Management in Hawaii while Toma stayed back in Japan to further his career. Unbeknownst to Toma, Yamapi had begged Johnny to let Toma successfully debut if he were to leave for Hawaii. Only when Johnny had agreed, did Yamapi packed up and left. Both cried and broke down many many times during the first year. Toma missed Pi sorely despite having other friends surrounding him. Even his debut was a lonely affair without the younger one around.
It broke his heart knowing that they were apart. For the first time in his life, he was scared. He grew in fear of having to live life without Pi again. Johnny went to great lengths to make sure that the two of them never had the chance to meet. NEWS had a substitute leader in Nishikido Ryo and Toma was kept busy by his never ending schedule. He slowly found solitude in his work. Interviews after interviews. Photo shoot after photo shoot. Rehearsals, filming movies, butai performances, his album, vocal practice, all kept him busy and thus provided him a way to keep from thinking about Yamapi. Yet success was nothing without Pi with him.
But when he was alone, his thoughts went to Pi. Oh, how his heart ached and longed to talk to the man he had grown up with. How he longed to reach out and touch him. Memories flooded him. Memories of them small again, finding success, fame, stardom. Memories of them dancing and singing together. Memories… All were nothing but memories now. Why was life so cruel? How could life tear them apart, leaving big black holes in his life? What if he never saw Pi again?
Again and again he chided himself. Pi had to come back. His family was here, his friends were here. He belonged in Japan. NEWS would not be the same again without him and fans were sad. He was sad.
Then the years flew by quickly, and one day he heard. He heard and he knew that the time has come for them to meet again. Pi was coming back. It was safe again for him to come back. Any displeasure over their forbidden relationship had worn away. The soothing passage of time had seen to that and many seemed to have forgotten.
As he was deep in his thoughts, suddenly he felt a hand touch him.
He jumped and whirled around to find himself looking at a pair of eyes. Eyes so familiar, so full of the warmth he had grown to love. Eyes he knew where he was safe and never judged. Eyes that he had searched endlessly only to find himself falling deeper in again. Beautiful warm eyes with tears now glistening and dangerously on the verge of spilling over.
For a long time, he didn’t know how, they searched each other’s soul with their eyes. No words were necessary. And Toma broke. Emotions, anger, hurt, love, loneliness overwhelmed him, like a riverbank whose angry waters could not contain any longer.
He pulled Yamapi near and both held each other tight. Both crying over their separation, and yet rejoicing knowing that neither had changed. Crying for they can touch and love now. For now.
For now….
Author: Joyce
Rating: G
Pairing: Tomapi
Note: This is my first attempt at writing fics, so I'm sorry that this is horrible! I'm truly sorry! Hontoni gomenasai!
Why is it late? Please let me see him, please I pray. Just this once. I’ve waited so long. So long. Too long.
He strode up and down the waiting lobby. He was anxious, his heart felt like it was going to jump out of his ribcage. The airport clock says 12.58pm. Toma had been waiting for only half an hour, but to him time had stopped. He looked at the arrival board and saw that flight AKA 1315 from Hawaii had arrived.
His heart skipped a beat.
Where is he??! 5 years have passed, could it be that I can’t recognize him anymore? Or maybe he has forgotten me?
NO, I should not think that way! I know he still thinks of me. Ikuta Toma, stop thinking silly thoughts!
Although he had been separated from Yamashita for years, he knows, he always knew, that they would not be apart for long. No, he won’t let anything or anyone get in their way this time. He had to try. He must. For their sake, he must.
5 years ago, news of Toma and Yamapi’s relationship leaked like wildfire. Although none of them came out publicly about it, but there were enough rumours and pictures for Johnny-san himself to take notice. Things were getting out of hand, and many fans were displeased. They had thought it was all rumours, and hadn’t expected it to be real. The older generation were disgusted by their relationship. No, they could not accept homosexuality yet, not just yet.
Johnny Jimusho himself then took things into his hands and gave both of them an ultimatum. They had to go separate ways, or else risked being dropped from the company and paying back their contract. Toma knew they had to take it. He can’t allow Yamapi’s successful career to just wilt away and disappear. He had a band to lead and millions of fans to answer to, unlike him who back then hasn’t yet debuted. No, for Yamapi’s sake, he would have to separate from Yamapi.
Under Johnny’s orders, Yamashita will have to leave to further his studies in Business Management in Hawaii while Toma stayed back in Japan to further his career. Unbeknownst to Toma, Yamapi had begged Johnny to let Toma successfully debut if he were to leave for Hawaii. Only when Johnny had agreed, did Yamapi packed up and left. Both cried and broke down many many times during the first year. Toma missed Pi sorely despite having other friends surrounding him. Even his debut was a lonely affair without the younger one around.
It broke his heart knowing that they were apart. For the first time in his life, he was scared. He grew in fear of having to live life without Pi again. Johnny went to great lengths to make sure that the two of them never had the chance to meet. NEWS had a substitute leader in Nishikido Ryo and Toma was kept busy by his never ending schedule. He slowly found solitude in his work. Interviews after interviews. Photo shoot after photo shoot. Rehearsals, filming movies, butai performances, his album, vocal practice, all kept him busy and thus provided him a way to keep from thinking about Yamapi. Yet success was nothing without Pi with him.
But when he was alone, his thoughts went to Pi. Oh, how his heart ached and longed to talk to the man he had grown up with. How he longed to reach out and touch him. Memories flooded him. Memories of them small again, finding success, fame, stardom. Memories of them dancing and singing together. Memories… All were nothing but memories now. Why was life so cruel? How could life tear them apart, leaving big black holes in his life? What if he never saw Pi again?
Again and again he chided himself. Pi had to come back. His family was here, his friends were here. He belonged in Japan. NEWS would not be the same again without him and fans were sad. He was sad.
Then the years flew by quickly, and one day he heard. He heard and he knew that the time has come for them to meet again. Pi was coming back. It was safe again for him to come back. Any displeasure over their forbidden relationship had worn away. The soothing passage of time had seen to that and many seemed to have forgotten.
As he was deep in his thoughts, suddenly he felt a hand touch him.
He jumped and whirled around to find himself looking at a pair of eyes. Eyes so familiar, so full of the warmth he had grown to love. Eyes he knew where he was safe and never judged. Eyes that he had searched endlessly only to find himself falling deeper in again. Beautiful warm eyes with tears now glistening and dangerously on the verge of spilling over.
For a long time, he didn’t know how, they searched each other’s soul with their eyes. No words were necessary. And Toma broke. Emotions, anger, hurt, love, loneliness overwhelmed him, like a riverbank whose angry waters could not contain any longer.
He pulled Yamapi near and both held each other tight. Both crying over their separation, and yet rejoicing knowing that neither had changed. Crying for they can touch and love now. For now.
For now….
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Hey people!! Jot down your thoughts, experiences, and you might get a penny for your thoughts...NOT...
Hey Goh AC, Nisha-professor-for-college-life, go to http://www.whatsafterspm.blogspot.com/
to tell the world about your life after SPM. I think your stories are fantastic!! You might be famous!
Hey Goh AC, Nisha-professor-for-college-life, go to http://www.whatsafterspm.blogspot.com/
to tell the world about your life after SPM. I think your stories are fantastic!! You might be famous!
Monday, March 23, 2009
Heya!!
I've been missing from the face of the earth and I'm back! Have been reading a wonderful TomaJun fanfic on LJ and suddenly fell in love with the thought of Toma getting so much love from everyone, regardless whether it's Pi, Jun, or even me!
It's the last day of work today, and 2 days of holidays for me to enjoy. Alas, I have assignments hanging over my head, threatening to dim my bright and spotless days with nothing but endless writing and researching. Which brings me to the point that I hate studying online. Call me an old fashioned bogey, but I love the feeling of having notes and books to go to when I study. Not journal after journal, which you have to dig out from the internet, and to your utter disappointment (after the 500th journal or so), doesn't even touch on the subject that you were looking for.
And another thing is, staring at the computer endlessly gives me headaches! My eyes are complaining and my head is drumming on. But, I've got only 2 usable journals.... Sigh.. And so the circle repeats itself.
Enough of complaints today. I hope that work will be fine and enjoyable today! With the exception of a colleague who jokes and does silly antics more than she cares for her patients, which means that someone else will have to do her job for her in the end.
Which means I'm complaining again... I'm such a bitch. Yeah.. Oh well, I'll just pick up my socks and put on my boxing gloves and head to work today. It's a wonderful day after all!
It's the last day of work today, and 2 days of holidays for me to enjoy. Alas, I have assignments hanging over my head, threatening to dim my bright and spotless days with nothing but endless writing and researching. Which brings me to the point that I hate studying online. Call me an old fashioned bogey, but I love the feeling of having notes and books to go to when I study. Not journal after journal, which you have to dig out from the internet, and to your utter disappointment (after the 500th journal or so), doesn't even touch on the subject that you were looking for.
And another thing is, staring at the computer endlessly gives me headaches! My eyes are complaining and my head is drumming on. But, I've got only 2 usable journals.... Sigh.. And so the circle repeats itself.
Enough of complaints today. I hope that work will be fine and enjoyable today! With the exception of a colleague who jokes and does silly antics more than she cares for her patients, which means that someone else will have to do her job for her in the end.
Which means I'm complaining again... I'm such a bitch. Yeah.. Oh well, I'll just pick up my socks and put on my boxing gloves and head to work today. It's a wonderful day after all!
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Peace
Today, I'm at peace with myself. Must be the rain and the thunder. Yea, I'm a weird person with some silly rain fetish. Anyway, I'm at peace with the world too, it seems! Blessed day my friends!
Random eh?
Random eh?
Monday, March 16, 2009
Relay for Life 2009
Relay for Life was last Saturday and Sunday! It was a wonderful event and so I had lots of fun! Well obviously we were supposed to be there to show our support for all those cancer survivors and anything that had to do with cancer. It was also supposed to be an event to collect and raise funds for the hospice centre, spread the news about cancer, and raise awareness.
So there we were, me and some friends, carrying placards and banners and walking around the field. It started off as a bright and sunny (and not to mention hot!) day. But around 6pm, dark clouds, not so dark anyway, started amassing above our heads. It didn't threaten to rain immediately, but I was glad that it got cooler. Around 7pm, a lovely little surprise (I stil think it's a gift from God) peeked out behind the clouds.
A faint, but still beautiful, rainbow appeard in the sky! It was just lovely and perked everyone up. People were pointing up to the sky and snapping pictures. 15 minutes later, the rainbow grew stronger (in colour) and we could finally see the whole arch of the rainbow. It was just one of those moments where you felt in awe of things greater than us humans. It felt serene and peaceful, to me anyway. I think God was also sending us a message and a gift to those cancer survivors out there, cheering them on and telling them that He knows what He is making us go through and that He will never let us be alone.
Anyhow, it did rain later on. But that was just fine. I think it was a success and will definitely join the next relay, and hopefully I can get to spend the night there next! I found a lovely song to share with all. It is from the anime Natsume Yuujinchou and I think it's a lovely anime (for those who are interested). But the song really is super nice. Enjoy!
p/s: I found out from a friend that she had been reading my blogs and I was surprised! It felt pleasant knowing that my literary greats (AHEM!) were being appreciated... LOL! Anyway, have a good day fellow humanoids!
So there we were, me and some friends, carrying placards and banners and walking around the field. It started off as a bright and sunny (and not to mention hot!) day. But around 6pm, dark clouds, not so dark anyway, started amassing above our heads. It didn't threaten to rain immediately, but I was glad that it got cooler. Around 7pm, a lovely little surprise (I stil think it's a gift from God) peeked out behind the clouds.
A faint, but still beautiful, rainbow appeard in the sky! It was just lovely and perked everyone up. People were pointing up to the sky and snapping pictures. 15 minutes later, the rainbow grew stronger (in colour) and we could finally see the whole arch of the rainbow. It was just one of those moments where you felt in awe of things greater than us humans. It felt serene and peaceful, to me anyway. I think God was also sending us a message and a gift to those cancer survivors out there, cheering them on and telling them that He knows what He is making us go through and that He will never let us be alone.
Anyhow, it did rain later on. But that was just fine. I think it was a success and will definitely join the next relay, and hopefully I can get to spend the night there next! I found a lovely song to share with all. It is from the anime Natsume Yuujinchou and I think it's a lovely anime (for those who are interested). But the song really is super nice. Enjoy!
p/s: I found out from a friend that she had been reading my blogs and I was surprised! It felt pleasant knowing that my literary greats (AHEM!) were being appreciated... LOL! Anyway, have a good day fellow humanoids!
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Studies started
I finally kicked myself into studying today. Nothing new, assignments are starting to pour in, I'll be spending more time in front of the PC, more pimples will sprout out (not sure where since my face is practically covered by them), more grey hair will be seen thanks to stress, my vocabulary will grow tremendously thanks to the thick law book that Monash sent me (which I think is nice), and hopefully at the end of all these, I'll have learnt something precious.
Anyhow, I'm telling myself to enjoy learning (yes, including the assignments) so that it will all be a breeze, instead of dreading it and forcing myself to study. Well, ethical and legal issues in nursing should be quite fun as I get to see what is the "prescribed" notion of doing things and COMPARING them to what is being practiced in my hospital. For instance, obtaining a consent. 'Nuff said.
Anyway, learning to manage wounds is also this semester, and hopefull by the end of June, I'll be taking better care of my patient's wounds. Perhaps with my new found knowledge, I'll be slightly more courageous and bravely discuss the care of wounds and sores with some of the doctors. Not all, but at least some... One or two of them are definitely off limits.. I don't want to be called a "nut" again...
Cheers!
Anyhow, I'm telling myself to enjoy learning (yes, including the assignments) so that it will all be a breeze, instead of dreading it and forcing myself to study. Well, ethical and legal issues in nursing should be quite fun as I get to see what is the "prescribed" notion of doing things and COMPARING them to what is being practiced in my hospital. For instance, obtaining a consent. 'Nuff said.
Anyway, learning to manage wounds is also this semester, and hopefull by the end of June, I'll be taking better care of my patient's wounds. Perhaps with my new found knowledge, I'll be slightly more courageous and bravely discuss the care of wounds and sores with some of the doctors. Not all, but at least some... One or two of them are definitely off limits.. I don't want to be called a "nut" again...
Cheers!
Monday, March 2, 2009
Physiotherapist
Hi! We have a new physiotherapist, whom the whole hospital is talking about. He's hot!
This is a real no brainer!
Sorry for being lame and silly...
Have a good day people!
This is a real no brainer!
Sorry for being lame and silly...
Have a good day people!
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