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Ok.. This is totally random. A friend of mine suggested I try a silly website called urbandictionary.com
She said to type in my name and see what came out. So I typed "Joyce" and the answers I got were just awful. I don't agree with them, and still think that my name is better than the definition I got. So here's what they had to say about "Joyce":

1. joyce
A verb, meaning to lead someone on and then crush his or her heart like a heartless, souless, biatch that does pineapples and your sister.
"She joyced you." "You got joyced." "Are you going to joyce him?"

2. Joyce
A slang in Bulgarian used for Marihuana
Hey mate, have you got any joyce

3. Joyce
A purple toenail fungus that is often used as medicine for butt warts
"Ew, is that Joyce?"

And beside my name were tags on other searches. I clicked on "sex" and this is what they gave me... (p/s: I ain't no pervert!)

sex
A painful activity in which a man, using the stiffest and pointiest part of his pelvic region, repeatedly stabs a female in her crotch until he feels satisfied. Can also take place between two men, in which one male stabs the other in the bum. Lesbian "sex" may be fun and all, but it aint real sex unless there is some sort of stabbling going on, perhaps with a cleverly shaped hand or steel dildo

Ok... this is getting too much for me... Kinda regretted that I wrote this. But, it's my day off after working for 8 whole days!! My brain's fried...

Passing of a Friend

I woke up this morning and read the newpaper. After going through the "fun" side of the papers, I read the "news" side of it. To my horror, I read about the death of a friend. I never ever would have thought that someone I knew will ever commit suicide. Not especially a nurse! Not by jumping off the Penang Bridge!

I'm still reeling in from shock as to what would have made her jump. Reports said that she had a "family dispute", but it seems so unlikely! Unlikely that she would jump off just because her parents said that she was living her life too lavishly. No, it did not make any sense. No sense at all! My parents are now making up their conclusions as to what had driven her to jump. And it's irritating me that they think they know how the world goes.

Anyway, it's a grey world today. I don't think the sun should shine, but I guess it goes to show that the world doesn't revolve around us humans. I'm still in shock, and I think I will be so for some time. I pray that my friend will have found her happy ending in wherever she is now. Although I wasn't close to her, but I was glad that she had touched my life and had taught me a lot when I was in college. We will all remember her for being a funny and cheerful soul in this big grey world.

Aussie Medicare!

Oh well, since I'm here, might as well pour out my new found love and adoration for Australia's Government. Huh?? you ask? Well, Semester 2 started yesterday, and this sem, we're learning Law and Ethics. And the textbook is from Australia. Which means they have lots of Autralian Law in there. Anyway, my lecturer started telling us a little about the medical benefits that the Federal Government (of Down Under) had for their veterans, aged community, children, and etc etc...

I kind of grew in awe of the wonderful facilities and help the community there get from the government! Not that my country is that terrible. I think we have a wonderful health system too. Now, if only they can stop bickering!.......... Sigh... Oh well, I really love it that, repoting of suspected cases of child abuse is made mandatory! Lovely isn't it?!

Spur of The Moment Kind of Thing

Went out today after classes started. Before this, I had planned to buy Lee Hom's new CD coz I loved all of his new songs! I thought to myself, how wonderful would it be to have Lee Hom singing again in my car with songs of the spring sun, heartbeats, unrequited love, dirty love.... So there I went, zoomed straight to Popular Bookshop (coz I have Popular Card ba! Got discount! )

Anyway, after picking out pens, I went straight to the music aisle. And there "he" was, sitting on the shelf, awaiting my honoured presence, awaiting the moment I would pick "him" up and purchase "him" at the counter. It was RM 44.90 (as assessed before).

But then, SNAP! Something went snap in my mind, and I thought, why should I get it for RM44.90 when I can get it for RM4 at the market! (of course I meant the pirated version). I did this tug and war in my mind. To buy or not to buy. Then suddenly, I thought. Why am I hesitating to buy a CD from a much adored musician?! It sounded pretty ok to get it when I was sitting alone in my room, listening to his music on YouTube!

Now, I'm feeling kind of disappointed in myself. What am I trying to say? I don't know really. Spur of the moment thoughts never turn out to reality once we really think about it? Haha. I'm just contemplating what to write actually, other than pouring compliments about the Australian Government and their Law/Bills. Will explain later. If the mood to type comes out again. Love reading and writing TomaPi fanfics too. I'm getting ridiculous. Better stop.

Everything - Lee Hom

Wang Lee Hom - Everything

曲：王力宏 词：王力宏 小寒

故事里的 起承转合 有一些忘记
做了多少错误的选择
原来波折 才暗示着 该走的方向
指引你我来到这一刻

就算别人都说 我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃

Cause You're My Everything
就一个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天 永远从此刻开始算起
你的爱是我的Everything

遥远天际 巧合相遇 有多少几率
多少烟火 坠落无痕
迹因为幸福 没有捷径 难免要绕道
不被看好越是要走到

就算别人都说 我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃

你就是Everything
就这个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意 所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything

Cause You're My Everything
就一个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天 永远从此刻开始算起

你就是Everything
就如这个原因 我会永远记住这种感觉
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意 所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything

Love. Friends. Valentine's Cards.

I received my first Valentine's Card yesterday! Hip-Hip-Hooray! Haha!! It wasn't from any secret admirer, or some unrequited love waiting to be noticed, or some hot-blooded Mr. Universe who spotted me at a coffee bar and fell head over heels with me. Nay nay nay... It was a much more meaningful card from a very very good friend who remembers me!

Yaayyy!! This is the best and probably the "best-est" (pardon me grammar..) Valentine's Day gift I've ever received, and perhaps one of the unforgettable ones in a long list of V-day gifts (or correctly, gifts-to-come). It was a simple card with a thank you note and "love-you-my-dear-friend" written with lots of love and sincerity in it. Perhaps I was being silly, or just the sheer ecstasy from receiving a V-Day card, but I could not help smiling broadly like some silly teenage girl who was in her throes of puppy love.

Which brought me to think. It was an already proven and much stated fact, but still I will repeat it. That life-long friends are much more precious than men. Girlfriends (or any true friend) will stick with you through thick and thin and share with your ups and downs (sorry for being so cliched). And I also say this as a sort-of testimonial to all those singles out there who will have to sit through those silly, sappy, ridiculously saccharine-sweet Valentine's Day advertorials and movies and gimmicks, come this 14th.

Anyway, single or not, I truly believe that good friends are for live. It's harder finding true friends, than falling in love with Mr.Right. Aye-ye! On a different note (this being the silly 5-year old FANGIRL speaking), I would love to wish Toma-chan, Ryo-chan, and Kei-chan A Very Happy Valentine's Day! Ganbarimasu, especially to dear Toma-chan!

And of course, a very HAPPY AND CHEERY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL MY FRIENDS (attached or single alike)!!!

Jilted

Seems like some friends are with me because I'm "useful" to have around.
Probably over-thinking again.
Must be the lack of sleep from working night shift.
Tomorrow will be a better day.

Exciting Night

What started of as a boring first day of night duty turned out to be the most exciting that ever happened in my 2 years of working life! It may just be ordinary events but at least it made my night shift a little more unpredictable.

So here I was, arriving for duty as usual at 10.30pm. And since this was the first day that the ward was open after the renovation and CNY holidays, I didn't expect it to be a full ward. Well, I wasn't that spot on. I came to find only 2 patients...... It was kind of a shock, but I didn't mind the lack of patients (because I know the ward will be full again within the next day or so). So I started vital signs as usual and completed my usual routine within half an hour. By 12am, I found myself too free. So we did some cleaning up and re-labelling of the drawers. The ward was still kind of messy because we were lacking some dividers (in the cabinets and drawers) and so, many documents haven't found their rightful homes yet.

While we were organizing the ward, some of the renovation workers (on night duty) started their work too, hoping to complete their last round of work by the coming morning. And so everything was smooth sailing.

Then at 3am, the lights went off with a pop and suddenly there was a loud beeping sound from the medication room (no worries, no bombs to be found). At first I wasn't worried, coz' I thought the workers accidentally caused the power trip and they will restore it ASAP. So I was surprised when the friendly worker came out and asked me, "Oi, apa jadi??? Kenapa tak ada electric?" To which I replied, "Hah? Bukan lu potong ka itu electric? Aiyo! Why no electric wan??!"

And so Mr. Friendly Worker said, "Oh, tak apa. Saya tolong kamu switch back itu electric." And so he went into the switch room and did his stuff. I thought, maybe give him 15 minutes. So friendly worker toiled in the switch room for some time. And when he came out like 30mins after, he said "Aiyo! Cannot flip back la the switch!! What's wrong ah?!"
"How I know?! Aiya...." my reply came.

And so began my night in total darkness. I groped for the phone and called the engineering on-call staff and located my night supervisor and told her my predicament. I really thank God that there were only 2 patients! And my female patient freaked out because the power went off with a loud pop. The other male patient slept like a baby (thank goodness..). And so we waited for the engineering staff to come. And my supervisor told me that the staff (Mr. Yee) stayed in Balik Pulau! That's like 13km away from my hospital!!! So in the meantime, we got out torchlights from the dusty storeroom. And the supervisor got some fluorescent lamps from security base. Both lasted 2 minutes because they had not been charged. And she got some more lamps from the nursing office. One worked well because it was new. The other 3 torchlights used up a total of 8 "D" sized batteries and still could not be used! They were ancient........... God bless them.

45 minutes later, Mr. Yee arrived! Hallelujah! I thought this interesting event would be over fast. Lo and behold he could not find the source of the power trip! (p/s: we could not use the generator because this was a local power trip, meaning confined only to my ward) And in the meantime, my patient was sweating profusely because it was hot and stuffy and the mozzies were killing us, literally. So I found another bed for her to camp on temporarily while we suss out the problem. And I sat alone in the darkness with a single light for company while kungfu fighting all the mozzies.

It was a silly sight to behold as I lugged along a fluorescent lamp to check my patient's vital signs and the patient gave me a "look". Who wouldn't? Funnier more was when I emptied his urinary catheter and held the jug up to the lamp to see the amount and colour of the urine I emptied. I felt like I was in the pre-war era, a single Florence Nightingale with a kerosene lamp along the hospital corridor. Horror movies anyone?

And the house supervisor said that if the power failure could not be sorted out, my two patients will have to be transferred out to other wards. So I started booking rooms from the next ward. Oh did I mention my PYXIS station (electronic medicine dispenser and supplies stock-cupboard thingy) were making loud beeping noises?? As in LOUD BEEPING NOISES. It was damn loud and I found out the reason for these beeps was because they were now running on battery power. They were reminding you that they need AC support! And just before they went out, the beeping got persistently frequent and louder!! And finally they went out too. Which I was grateful for because the beeping simply stopped! Hallelujah I sang ^__^

After what seemed like a decade, the smart man finally got the power supply back! It was 5am by then and I had almost fell asleep in the darkness. And I forgot to mention that my infusion pump also went out of battery life and could not be charged because the power supply was out. So I decided to change to another pump. When I tried all the pumps in the cabinet, all those in the "reachable" cabinet were out of battery life too! And those higher up, I could not reach! Sigh... Luckilly I had one with 2 more bars of battery life. Sigh.... (these things make a loud beeping noise too when the battery is dying...)

Why am I telling you this story? Because I'm trying to stay awake as best as I could while flitting through web pages online. And I hate mozzies. And I think this was an interesting night. And because I will never have only 2 patients ever again.

I found that a singer by the name of Jane Zhang Liang Ying from mainland China is a super singer with a pitch that is in the whistle register (that's like the highest register of the human voice, even higher than the falsetto!) (e.g. Mariah Carey, Minnie Riperton - who sang Lovin' You). Well, she sings well too! Catch her latest duet with my beloved Wang Lee Hom.

p/s: I thought it was the electric guitar, till I realized that it was HER singing! OMG!