People make my head spin. Period. Have you ever felt that people are the wierdest things on earth? They say something just to mean another thing. Why must someone say "I'll let you make the decision. I cin-cai* wan", and when you've made the decision, they tell you the dislike it? What's the point of saying "cin-cai"? Of course, 'm not perfect too. I proably did it too. I think I'm too much of a doormat sometimes. I try to please everyone too much. I say yes 90% of the times when asked to do something, regardless whether I'm killing myself with the tonne of work under me or not. I really want to change and say NO!
Why am I afraid to say no? Perhaps because I think that saying no will make people like me less. I think I've got inferiority complex or something like that. Or perhaps it's because my period is playing games with my mood again. Sigh.... Feeling depressed now.
I shall not think about that for a while. I've got assignments as usual, and birtdays coming up! I think I'll get SL the nice radio. Oh well, I owe her one She's really a nice friend and that'll be a good enough reason to get her a nice present. And I need to tell myself that God loves me whether I'm perfect or not. I'm sure he knows I'm darn right not perfect. Sigh, when can I go to Iya Japan? Saw it in the newspaper today, and it was GORGEOUS!! I should go volunteer myself there for a short stint one day. Maybe meet Mr. Right there Get hitched after a whirlwind romance and settle down and have kids! And work part time as a nurse to support my family Haha!! I'm thinking too much! At least my mood's up now. Yop! Shall get my hands and brain cells working again. I kinda like my assignment. Hope I get good grades!
Why am I afraid to say no? Perhaps because I think that saying no will make people like me less. I think I've got inferiority complex or something like that. Or perhaps it's because my period is playing games with my mood again. Sigh.... Feeling depressed now.
I shall not think about that for a while. I've got assignments as usual, and birtdays coming up! I think I'll get SL the nice radio. Oh well, I owe her one She's really a nice friend and that'll be a good enough reason to get her a nice present. And I need to tell myself that God loves me whether I'm perfect or not. I'm sure he knows I'm darn right not perfect. Sigh, when can I go to Iya Japan? Saw it in the newspaper today, and it was GORGEOUS!! I should go volunteer myself there for a short stint one day. Maybe meet Mr. Right there Get hitched after a whirlwind romance and settle down and have kids! And work part time as a nurse to support my family Haha!! I'm thinking too much! At least my mood's up now. Yop! Shall get my hands and brain cells working again. I kinda like my assignment. Hope I get good grades!
Cheers!!
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