Lost and Found

Title: Lost and Found
Author: Joyce
Rating: G
Pairing: Tomapi
Note: This is my first attempt at writing fics, so I'm sorry that this is horrible! I'm truly sorry! Hontoni gomenasai!

Why is it late? Please let me see him, please I pray. Just this once. I’ve waited so long. So long. Too long.

He strode up and down the waiting lobby. He was anxious, his heart felt like it was going to jump out of his ribcage. The airport clock says 12.58pm. Toma had been waiting for only half an hour, but to him time had stopped. He looked at the arrival board and saw that flight AKA 1315 from Hawaii had arrived.

His heart skipped a beat.

Where is he??! 5 years have passed, could it be that I can’t recognize him anymore? Or maybe he has forgotten me?
NO, I should not think that way! I know he still thinks of me. Ikuta Toma, stop thinking silly thoughts!

Although he had been separated from Yamashita for years, he knows, he always knew, that they would not be apart for long. No, he won’t let anything or anyone get in their way this time. He had to try. He must. For their sake, he must.

5 years ago, news of Toma and Yamapi’s relationship leaked like wildfire. Although none of them came out publicly about it, but there were enough rumours and pictures for Johnny-san himself to take notice. Things were getting out of hand, and many fans were displeased. They had thought it was all rumours, and hadn’t expected it to be real. The older generation were disgusted by their relationship. No, they could not accept homosexuality yet, not just yet.

Johnny Jimusho himself then took things into his hands and gave both of them an ultimatum. They had to go separate ways, or else risked being dropped from the company and paying back their contract. Toma knew they had to take it. He can’t allow Yamapi’s successful career to just wilt away and disappear. He had a band to lead and millions of fans to answer to, unlike him who back then hasn’t yet debuted. No, for Yamapi’s sake, he would have to separate from Yamapi.

Under Johnny’s orders, Yamashita will have to leave to further his studies in Business Management in Hawaii while Toma stayed back in Japan to further his career. Unbeknownst to Toma, Yamapi had begged Johnny to let Toma successfully debut if he were to leave for Hawaii. Only when Johnny had agreed, did Yamapi packed up and left. Both cried and broke down many many times during the first year. Toma missed Pi sorely despite having other friends surrounding him. Even his debut was a lonely affair without the younger one around.

It broke his heart knowing that they were apart. For the first time in his life, he was scared. He grew in fear of having to live life without Pi again. Johnny went to great lengths to make sure that the two of them never had the chance to meet. NEWS had a substitute leader in Nishikido Ryo and Toma was kept busy by his never ending schedule. He slowly found solitude in his work. Interviews after interviews. Photo shoot after photo shoot. Rehearsals, filming movies, butai performances, his album, vocal practice, all kept him busy and thus provided him a way to keep from thinking about Yamapi. Yet success was nothing without Pi with him.

But when he was alone, his thoughts went to Pi. Oh, how his heart ached and longed to talk to the man he had grown up with. How he longed to reach out and touch him. Memories flooded him. Memories of them small again, finding success, fame, stardom. Memories of them dancing and singing together. Memories… All were nothing but memories now. Why was life so cruel? How could life tear them apart, leaving big black holes in his life? What if he never saw Pi again?

Again and again he chided himself. Pi had to come back. His family was here, his friends were here. He belonged in Japan. NEWS would not be the same again without him and fans were sad. He was sad.

Then the years flew by quickly, and one day he heard. He heard and he knew that the time has come for them to meet again. Pi was coming back. It was safe again for him to come back. Any displeasure over their forbidden relationship had worn away. The soothing passage of time had seen to that and many seemed to have forgotten.

As he was deep in his thoughts, suddenly he felt a hand touch him.

He jumped and whirled around to find himself looking at a pair of eyes. Eyes so familiar, so full of the warmth he had grown to love. Eyes he knew where he was safe and never judged. Eyes that he had searched endlessly only to find himself falling deeper in again. Beautiful warm eyes with tears now glistening and dangerously on the verge of spilling over.

For a long time, he didn’t know how, they searched each other’s soul with their eyes. No words were necessary. And Toma broke. Emotions, anger, hurt, love, loneliness overwhelmed him, like a riverbank whose angry waters could not contain any longer.

He pulled Yamapi near and both held each other tight. Both crying over their separation, and yet rejoicing knowing that neither had changed. Crying for they can touch and love now. For now.

For now….